Sunday, June 21, 2009

For My Dad

Well its nearly been six months since my Dad passed away suddenly with no warning and the shell shock still lingers. I still break into tears just thinking of him, or hearing a certain song on the radio, or seeing something blue and gold or....the list of reasons goes on and on.

The tears come all to freely and unexpectedly and I wonder when that will cease or slow.... and Fathers Day, this first one without him is really tough,almost overwhelming and even seeing the advertisements on tv about Fathers Day makes me sad and so envious of those who still have their Dad to celebrate with.

My Dad was an amazing Father... amazing!!! He always made my sister and I feel important and that he had all the time in the world to spend with us, when in reality he sometimes worked multiple jobs to keep our family fed, helped raise many other kids in our household, some related some not and spent the better part of 50+ years of his life coaching other young people.

I cant fully comprehend all the things my Dad (and Mom) went through to raise my sister and I, to make ends meet, to deal with incredible stresses and strains, to instill morals and values in us, and I am humbled and awestruck by it.

My Dad loved my mother with a passion I can only hope to see one day after many years spent with my own new Hubs. Mom always knew how much he loved her and never ever had a doubt from very early on in their relationship. My earliest memories of them together involve him caressing her shoulder as he passed in the hall, holding her hand any time he had the chance and even winking at her when she caught his eye and didn't know we were looking! (in fact they were so in love that you could never get a picture of just one of them alone, as indicated by the picture I included above.) They were blessed with 52 years together!

I could blog all day and into the night and still be unable to tell you just how much my father meant to me and how much it hurts right now to know I will never hear his voice again on this earth and I must wait until my Heavenly Father calls me home to see Dad again.

If I could share anything with you who still have your father I would say don't miss any chance to say I love you, don't miss any chance to spend time with him because the terrible thing about life is you just don't know when the good Lord will say...ITS TIME.... and no matter how they go or when they go... it will be to soon!

Happy Fathers Day.....


Kath said...

I am so very sorry, Deb....your dad sounds like he was amazing! So much love you have for him...and aways will.
I am glad you have so many good and happy memories to hold onto.
I know he's lookin down on ya and thinkin "what a beatiful girl" I raised ;)


Tina said...

How truly blessed you and Terry are to have had your Dad, this special man whose legacy is undeniably one that will live on beyond all of you.

I lost my Dad, not to death, but to divorce and abandonment when I was 11. I never had a father figure in my life till I met Jesus and was introduced to the unconditional love of a Father who would sacrifice His most precious, His son, Jesus, for me because I am precious and valuable to Him.

I celebrate Father's day today in His love and as I read your post about your Dad....I'm grateful to God that you and Terry had a Father in your life who modeled for you what your Father in heaven feels about you. That you are valued, precious, and chosen and loved with an everlasting love.

You are a precious friend to me.

Deb said...

Kath and Tina,

It always makes my heart smile to see you two special people on my comments page, because i know your kind words and love shared will make me smile!

I love you my blog friends. And Tina cant wait to see your smiling face in the shop again soon!